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game everything first purely small information dug out .

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its a pity i cant write oh i relise i am writting this, most people can write but ... to truely write, such a longing. ah well i am sorry to say but this is all i have to offer even in my autistic flights
its all chaos.
though there a rare sight in these times, myabe i am broken or fixed, whimpering  shit licking filthy creature.





.CHECK OUT POLY DIRECTIONAL RESIN.




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t college at half nine, Half fucking nine.
I hate xxxxxx its cold.

oh oh flat, go text or something, "Sure, give me a call on xxxxxxxxxxxxx & we'll fix a time. Ash"
I dunno what flat it is, i emailed and forgot to put down what flat it is. Ill go look. "Category: available
City: gxxxxx
Area: Txxxx
Subject: Room avlble 5 mins from Sxxxxx


Message:
Single bedroom avlble in modern Fully furnished flat 5 mins from Cale/Strathclyde Uni. All mod cons. TV, Wireless Broadband, BT phone.Avlble from 3 Apr 07. £220 + bills
"

It looks not bad, you should go looks at it.
Now.
Yes now go phones.

I have a sore head, and i have to do reserch for college. Look at rented places for mum (she wants to move).

Ill email laters.

x



000
its lonely here theres no one to torture
crack and anal sex
iev seen the future and it is murder
repent.
0000



this last breath is my mistake, fume filled pungent aroma of decAy once living orgnic sheer dulled plastic wrapped dulled orgsm.
with this slowing this denial i declare intent to fill your air with posion. please forgiveme my cancer.


"lousy lil poets come around"


special thank you. to the vile creature who reintroduced me to the joys of cool, though there own misgivings creating a passe attempt at nothing.
i shall never remeber you . know my name deary doll. in your wonderful lil droul drearrie counting counters serving slaves well thNK FUK ITS YOU

ah ia tht  WIFT of Something special in air a memory

i am smiling i remeber this song. i remeber versions varying ways manners and etiquiate of all those youths and clashings.
do you know why#? because i do not. why in all thT HAS A WOrth is some vile voice tortring this sweeting humming ?

this is no more a journal that my shit is a log.

reverberation/

invited to london again different persons.

i enjoy my twitch.


i wonder if this will ever have a meaning more than this moment. why do i sit in this strangers home a moment to attempt some form of human relationship outside those i make as a descison.

dungeons and dragons with two people one of which cannot read well ( child ) was less fun that i thought it to be,
a bridge .

I AM to be a uncle.of sorts.after a fashion of which even i am unsure of.


wifet[pooh: male


chnage name.


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"Look at me," he shouts. "I'm an artist! I don't have a real job!
I only listen to bands you've never heard of!"




Dare to brve, speculate apoun the nature of humanity and beyond grasp of mortal things.
where lies the truely expectional, with broken wings.



missing matar, and blaspehmious connections poorly dears wandering into this distent den of...nothingnmess. blaaah


i belive iev met here,
 i merely use the thought
provoking nature ( or lack)
of egomanical mundane burden hidding
away all that is far to clearly a state
 of fragile decay to scene of natural
entropy/. how well cry .

though iev yet to click you have a hairy animal?
how utterly normal for this species.

i wish i was more.
 

the lesbeins discovered my flashing images
sequences where in i am revelaved for a
possible manical murbid lover of ...kiddie kilers.
well images and names... lol
lose of innocence or captureing an innocence in that moment pre...life?
not particulary maybe its the art. maybe its the poem ol.
i shant. i shant regret my fucking life. iev

I LIKE CHERRY

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remeber not to be yourself.
in a puriel attempt to cease this sensation little thrill thumping ghnaw of pain ill stumble along so meerily ,
such as i should be sterilised at birth keep world safe pure and all such other offensive and owrrying commentry.

i am tirdd, i am sore and i do not feel happy.
litd all hold hands and sway slowly to what ever  noises we hear in this world as every other person slowly joins
hand heldings festivities or feels bad and lonely and start crying. this is our pact.

to slowly allow mutiliationof out personal disgrace and utter bovine nature to drive us all to new depths of inner
searching and salvation awaits with beckoning hieghts lits reach orgasm again and again

the sluts we are. oh love love love gimme what you got cos its never enough and i aint full.
so fatts sing to me, little wheeazy whispsers. .

to day i had several jelly belly jellybeans. of various colours ( though of sour nature) and i also had toast,

now that we all know

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those who would rather face the shooting squad, than quized  pretty someone,
ooh lucky few who would have knew it was always bound for you.

written names aimed.




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i hate being so utterly clueless as to my own devine pathe.ah true true urely if i was a diety of some
determinable
charector as all scan clearly e by my most blatently crystal i am nothing if that.

so as a being of clear logic its plain, these dirty clothes, unshaven disarray ah akinne to beatutiful solo
nuckie sites awaiting final days of reconing ,

i am a sight unseen. ach well dearie dollies.ah tthose dreaxed beaming post nukes/ where
is the equation for mass abortion? was there release of such
technoogies a covert attempt to asist in Random personal note why do all the pretty op tranni black ladies have pretty smiles?

yeah boit town relise roger rabbit didnt have a cock right thats mwhy that miss red laid it about town surely this semi interspecies love is a symbol of our own socitey#;/

does semi interspecies animated relationship with difficult sexual hstiory or lack therof deam i that failure is undeniable to bar those in denial of state of reality,
heaven hells weddingb bells. though i am no fool. well...


"bring it" a sure sig n of higher intligence in play. note that every time you hear this term? to try to contain urge to slap he por sap.
when i was younger i always enjoy seeming sparks of tinfoil in icrowave, why does sensation of chewingtinfoil seem appealing
neckie pooh sore, how bout you#?


Ugly betty is attractive as sheis but lits face the naked truth, you know shell have a hair fanny.
now now our mr brady and his dishelicious plaid ackets never fail to give me a raise.
               "raise how much money how soon?! "
with three young girls and three young boys i can think of many a wayto make money fast, #

is it just me or is a manical laugh sexy, maybe a snort a giggle and cackle thee and here/

i do in all ghastly horrid ugly self loathing love

even seattle has unicorns. when clowns smile . now there lyrics why havent i sena decent parody of late? hmm

SO yeah robinson crueso meets peroxide layabout. though maybe its this lovely nowhere, oh god i wish it was. but i am as it where. located in a vacinity where in i do wish i was not.
which after insinuation askin to artificial stimulation merelt more verbal inserstion. sugestion hint and out right comment i do wish to and one more

DAVEY JONES/ GIRL LOOK WHAT YOUEV DONE TO ME, ME AND MY WHOLE WORLD GIRL YOUEV BROUGHT THE SUN TO ME, WITH YOUR SMILE, PRETTY GIRL I AM TELLING YOU GIRL SOMETHING NOT KNOWN TO ME MAKES YOU WHAT YOU ARE.

AH yeaaagh uh dentists chairs bloody teeth , to sweet.
my mood has a strange urge to dress as a all white semi andro jumpie jupie to very ... music i wants. and destroy some ppoor charlies home, to much sugar causes pain .

i am fat. and i dislike it.
breif caption. i hate anyone who doesnt utterly adore me.

pluck me silly.


oooooh lucky little frog, ballslens fucked after knowhows pussy twat foool beautiful is as does.
ment to meet iggs but a sickle self drew to cuvers all to late for a little warm coffee.


is crying to natural born killers sad?




oh reminf me to add night breed to fav movies. you neverr remeber do you/.?


I REMEBER WHEN EVERY ONE KNEW MY NAME , A REPUATION MOSTLY UNDESERVED OR SERVED WALKING BEFORE, SPEAKING FOR ME.


I LAY IN THIS BED OF ASH FILTHY SHEETS RUPPLED AROUND THROWN TOGTHER THERE PUTRID .#

I HAVE NO IDEA WHO THIS BAND ARE BUT THE PROVE THAT NOT ALL BANDS FROM NY ARE COOL.
PASTCHE OF ALL THOSE GRIME EVER SO SLIGHTLY BRITISH SCREAMY BANDS SCENE ONCE NOT SO LONG AGO IN NOWHERRE PUBS.

JESYUS I REGRET THROWING AWAY MY VIRGINITY, STRANGE HOW ONE THOUGHT LEADS TO AN OTHER IN A SOMEWHAT UNRECONGNISEABLE MANNER.
CHERISH YOUR INNOCENCE. OR REMEMNANTRS OF THAT WHICH SHOULD BE IMPORTANT TO YOU.


ADING THOSE ACCENTS SEEMED SO ... SO FUCKING COOL MAN! ... YEAH
recent aquisinciantions
betty page not so pristene movie disck.

i prefer this song to be whispered to me a lull of near silence like sound of rain rubbleing in ether,to stare sitting out in night mit i create weeping from my this very song so manyt times accompaining patters of crystalhw drops, miniture oceans washing away everything,

remanaing.

yes yes.

ipod nano.
games/i have family of sorts and wwith this time i did take youngest male close relative, a male who was spawned from same cunt i was to the cinema as poor chap ...
may be lonely. and i see them little i did offer to take f=the female yet she as her age would predict seemed to interwined with her social life mocking the little males lacking of social standing or groups therof.
though the flick itself was a abonimation onto the silver screen a vineareal mental imaginining diohrea , a damnation to sit for though it was only hour and a tad
was a wste of life a eternity strawn out , i pitied the poor cchap behind me sqweeling i thought it to be MS or some other such debiliatiting disorder? though maybe it was twithing hand movement i thought was sign,
no though i recongnised, if so why didnt those fingers fly for escape. ah well.


its strange to think ( an other non not the same as my HA mother did enjoy the unprotected cock  , and when i say unprotected i do mean from her gorg her crevaice her vile unholy opening that seems to consume whole soul if those creaure that lay between her
legs are men at all or some souless beinggs seeking a ease. ahem... oh i mean my mother not my mum,. there is a differnce . large differnce, so i have no obvious issues.
anyway, an other she spewed . is to be a father. though younger than me. and from what i know of her other children, tough i do feel close to them than she, he remains ostly unknown to me,
but apparently he is not some buckfast dribbling yob scretching down dark allays of life anyhoo.
thus i shall be a uncle in all likely hood to a child i shall never see. sighs, the cycle continues.
more unknown.

it does make me think of my own ... life as it where. is. he is of steady income doing service to world saving people. a neenoo flashy naa naa scretaching down streets. i am a dullard accept it, k? i have.

yes yes, my infedaliity or lack of seems to be a doubt of sinicerity of faith of truth, this station evolved being from one i once was would laugh if not cry.
its a heart, this thing that pumps cookie cutter candy lover, blocked and cogged machine card carrying grey blob of muscle(hA) this organ a symbol of life love and so on.
i own i posses my own as much as one as myself can,

given  away, serf i may be. but non else shall enter onto me with such wrath or gentle to be, as given to my other my self as should be.

pooohooo oh as i tried to typ the monkey creature while pondering over typing shakiespears new novel i shall or shall if possible be getting a new little secret something done , if i muster all that is needed
for the occassion .

myt hair is ... as you can easily imagine putrid, save me and suggest a new cut as it where, as i think i may drasticly alter it with some garden s'cheers if you are unfamiliar with my mpop top unculry hair drop from my top to toe,

imagine a blond monkey, ... yes. thats me.

ow with it " nigga lips" ( CHEERS ILL NEVER FORGET THAT, (strangly i took it as a compliment,) (ohh look i am in a line prison.)possibly where i belong, depenind apoun who you ask. what was ui saying ? oh monkies.
and me. as a strong beliver in... somehting, it has come to my understanding that they monkeys that is are highest possible evoultionary stage of all species thus far, and as such we are lower species, who have yet to evolve into our higher form.

disagree? prove we wrong.

please do try it wwould be fun

this douvet is failing in its own soul purpose ( which is to be first in russian ballet performance of buzzfizzs classics best of album. performed in most cunningly disguused bdsm dungeon why my duvet wishes to do such i cannot fathom yet i suppose as its not doing its secondry function of covering my feet i dont suppose it shall ever fufiil its prime aim in its humble life,

shh do not alow these covers to see these words as it may rvolt leading a revoloution a uprining to my neck chest and arms, not neccassriky in that order, as i have eyt to mutate any more than
most atlest inanyway youd physicaly notice well...bar the male nd female bits,m anyhoo/.,

lest this fiendish beastie rise up and smother me with its covering macavelian mite, for god it might make me warm! and in this darn place no greater sin can be compounded into words let alone action to
heat ones self. i hear a clicking though on first imspection i belived it to be some form of insect making a attempt to communicate with my current clicks and clacks at this computer i know relise my hearing may ( hopefuly) be actining up...
as i truely do not hope i am currently being watched by some higher life form insect as it would disprove my theory on monkeys.

its strange to think iev never been medicated a fact of which i repeate with pride to shock of some... its shit kindy true, bar the once and that wasnt for my minty lists actions thoughts more my ill behaviour.

i was a problem child.

lol


iev written rather alot, this is what happens when i am marooned without any art equpiment not even a  bloody pencil and i am not in mood to use feces or such.


"I AM NOT I LOVE WITH TWIGGY" if you are not familiar with work of twiggy , your to young to be reading this., i was in love with bobby dylan  lol

when jacked in ia m brighter when i am whiter it makes me all mighty a charge with a flow, i only now come to know this thing wrapped aound this staunch flesh thing attaching body to head is my wire

jesus i wish my ambilical cord would come undone, my wife tied round my neck, coming to one.l
i want to fuck, never admite nor mention mother wife and sex in once sentence its some manner of faux papa!
i am sure to goddly goddess in all her magesty and might, i shall not rest on this night,
i have a distaste for sypuedo modern punk types, and there anti nazi fucking cunty bullshit, some children where ment to be drowned at birth, and god knows i recognise my own


r==come on down to to the bottom of the barrel where the pretty lay dead, little greasy fish and silly wifes. oooer father land leads by example and i dig it baby like a wilde nigt or pearlies licks at my neck


is it just me or is it rather depressing to think that you only exist because some cock shot its filthy into some whores cunt?
not to judge your parents ( if applicable) but most births ( and i belive its over 90% ) are unplanned.

you are the living testement to ... failure, to lust. to a error.
a mistake and if you where planned.
... aren you special. did you parent use anochromatic toys to timulate your mind while feeding your organic freerange breast milk from there ouppair who daddy liked to sneak down and vist in night, only only... shhh dont scream ,
oh sure shed run away but mummy and daddy have her passport hidden away and to be honest where would she go back home to a war?

arent you special



One person .



i relise i am not a nice person attimes but my mood is carried with whimsical fury of beat, and now now now i shall never sleeep .
to qoute a random persons false persona ,

" Z? " LOL

yes yes yes surely one day when i am hapily married my children asking me about my youth ill edit out some parts , ... i want my crazy lil hitler child, artist reader.
i shall make him . her in image of my idol . billy idol  with blond hair blue eyes and a wicked tougne ready with a wit to cut throgh hearts. my little angel.



sometimsw i like to think my mother was raped by devil and wasnt just an other corrupted teenage schlut. i relise this may be ... amoral wrong and such but... she was the one who got pregnant.


i am     VISITING FAMILY.
if any one if wondering as to why i am like this at momement.

prob doesnt help that i am ill with the aids.



one day if i live i shall print off these lies. add a image a screwling drawing or two and sell it as a little bookm, adding all those other pages lost to interweb. they do go back a millenium or two.

LOOKING THROUGH an OTHERS EYES.

my tooth ish shwoore ifsh getsh fishxed but ... i think id have to pay for it. and i am if nothing else terrorfified of someone else touching me. some strange intering an orothice saved for specialone.
oh in my younger rage id yanked that fukerout cut away some lump digging at flesh , but... in truth sometimes self surgery makes you end up in hospital. and i am good these days

ieb deffenintly relaxed in my olden golden days, no more debauchery. no more... anyting.
life filled with...

oh i got ash on my chest my breasts though they are small and humble do beckon for a careess of something less scorchful.
i think i wanna play dress up, roll on some strange places floor in a drunken stupor. and be utterly drop dead. though failing that... id like to get a pony for my birthdayt.

rumour has it my little bretherin licked my his mattas dildo. i found this sickening. children many of whom need a new home, need to be taken away. given a new life.
BUT
from my own expeinces being given threats from your own  mother about being put in a home tend to be empty bluffs.

thats not mother but mum. i love my mum, she is a nice old lady.
but she makes awful tea and cant cook to save her life.

ooh yeah so i am to be an uncle which got me to thinking about family as you can see, and i ended up thinking about my own father,., who ia m sure is a nice guy.
anyway it just got me thi nking and i wander if my own childhood will effect my son or daughter, though i would want to be a good father/mother i have no experince of what there ment to do.

"POOOR LIL JIMMY WOULDNT LIT GO, STAYING AWAKE IN HIS BED, NO ONE EVER LISTENIDNED TO A WORD HE SAID,NOW LIL JIMMYS GONE HE DISAPPERAED ONE DAY, NO ONE SAY THA AMBULANC4E TAKE HIMA AWAY, POOR LIL JIMMY WOULDNT LIT GO, JIMMY JIMMY OOH"


I LISTEM TO MOOSICK ,

WHATS MOST IMPORTANT THING TO YOU, MY FAMILY NOT THE ONE FORCED APOUN ME AT BIRTH BUT ONE WHICH I CREATE,THOSE I CHERISH,
"TELLING ME TO GROW UP BUT IF I ACT MY AGE I JUST WOULDNT BE ME"

I HAVE DECIDED BY TIME THIS SERISE OF SONGS REACHES THE END IT SHALL BE MY OWN END, TO ACCOMPANY THESE WAILS I JOIN THERE ECHOS .

WELL BIRDS ARE TWEETNG THERE LITTLE SONGS ONLY FEW MORE SONGS TO GO, SUN SETS ITS DAZZLING THEW, END IS ALWAYS TRUE. FALLING IGHT WAITING FOR WORD TO END


            Goodbye.


oh dear  those words i willfuly waked in to this most wicked machine seemed to defunct. as you shall notice only by this statement that there are no words after good bye bar these words as a large portion of writting has been mislayed If anyone actualy cares ask and i may remember though it seems doubtful . perhaps they where beautiful insightful helpful but there is little chance of such as prior ramblings show.

a singular white tube awaits the last the formost meaningless at my minds in hindsite i do declare this without thought as to words that will come, as planning is... most unfun. and as such the drill against my skull is winding, i hear a whurr vison blur and now and now i see a common link
no four triangles my dolls, my words i address to no one but especialy you.what i need most is future. or past deppenind on my own prior views/ words.






you forget because you rememeber

oh new bootsies needied dolly ?
ltx fishtail redhr?

this cough medicen is far from scrumptious.



oh give me a reason., soe purpose in my life a aim which to through my very being. and whist non look i shall lick bite scratch beneath and becoming more. a new rebirth.
something worthy of this waste of . my hand is going very red. tattoos showing up more than usual, i dislike it.

.bright inside hind side suicide .

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Wed, Apr. 25th, 2007, 01:33 am
systamatic analysiation cause of anhiliation to know to remove into remove reasonning , purpose?

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